The Sunday night angst

A reminder about our passing days + an experiential exercise

The Sunday evening angst! You know what I am talking about if you work a 9-5 with the work day starting on Monday. That angst is what keeps us asking how fast the weekend went and so we want to renegotiate the week days.

What if we saw clearly that the week and the weekend are only inside of us? What does that mean? I know that could be confusing! But look there’s no day that’s outside of you!

Somehow, because of the objective quality of the mind, we believe that we go throguh our days. “Monday comes and goes”, we think. “Tuesday comes and then Wednesday”. With the eyes open and the mind folded in, we may begin to see first that there’s only one that remains and all that appears only appears within this wide vast space of Nothingness. Nothingness? I know! It sounds like another object! But from where you are, where are you? The one that may be confused, where is that one?

But look for yourself! Where did yesterday go? Where is tomorrow? Is it locked in a day(ta) storage waiting for its time to be up so it could come out of its dressing room?
But we can truly see, if we truly see, that everything is a projection of mind. Everything is truly appearing to the one who does not appear or disappear.

But why would we find this hard to see? The shortest answer here is, the mind is designed to oscillate as one of its qualities. In that oscillation, it creates space and time. In the creation of time, it moves and moves, expecting the future, reminiscing about the past, creating distance between both. But there has been no distance to both past or future. There’s just this ever present, never absent moment that the thoughts and projections of a past and future appear in. As the mind rotates and oscillates, it creates this belief in a clock motion as something that’s truly happening to life. See, a billion years ago and today are in the same moment. As hard as this is to chew, you only understand when that oscillation of mind is relaxed.

So what to do?

Now if you think about the new week day or the next day and you contract, watch out for that contraction. It could be in your chest. Watch as the chest tightens. What is that made of? What is that contraction made of? Yes, you heard that question right. What is the tightening made of?
Each time you tense, come back to the quality of that tension. Without naming it, what are the other qualities of this contraction. Also, bring attention to the one that’s noticing.

You see, our experiences are not as solid as we belive them to be. It’s the reason why we may think that a man walking down the street is a real and solid event happening. But maybe it’s not as solid as you believe this to be. It’s an impression in Mind. Not that no man is walking down the street. But the impression is inside of you.

Look also at all of your experiences, big or small, noticeable or not, see that they are passing, appearing in this moment but disappearing out of this moment. It’s the same way our classification of days are. These descriptors, these events, these days pass but you remain.

You remain!